It's terrible you weren't able to access help when you needed it. Although you're UK-based too, right? Not a surprise you struggled to get therapy, the waiting lists are really long in some places. I waited six months.

I'm all for exercising and eating healthily, I feel like they're just never going to be enough to pull you out of the mire. Like I said, they're good for maintenance though, as someone who loathes any kind of physical activity it irritates me that I do feel pretty chill after a workout.